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2002-03-05

May It Be That You Love Me For Who I Am

After much annoying confusion, (see yesterday's entry for more details) I have finally come down with the straight and honest facts. Here it is, Lauren's Psycho Analasys. Bah, I don't even know if that's spelt right!

Doctor Tail: So Lauren, would you mind telling me what all this Mike hysteria is all about?

Lauren: I don't know!

Dr.Tail: I have a lot of time. Relax and think about it for a moment. Take as much time as you need.

After a full sleep-cycle of thinking we come back to Doctor Tail's office where Lauren is ready to answer the doctor's important question.

Lauren: Well, it all started when I liked him that first time. He liked me too and we started going out. Then, a little before what would have been our second month anniversary, he broke up with me because he figured we would be better as friends. I...

Dr.Tail: Please, continue.

Lauren: I agreed of course, not being familiar with how to act in such a situation and so I was deeply hurt. I still talked to him afterward the same way as we had talked before admitting our feelings. As much as I tried, I just couldn't stop thinking about him. I kept telling myself, "No! You don't like him! You can't and you don't! Stop it already!" And sometimes I would think it was working, until I would hear or see something that would remind me of him and then I would crack all over again.

Dr.Tail: I see. And why did you say in an earlier meeting with me that you had feelings for another? I believe Andrew was his name.

Lauren: Yes, I admit to that lie, but I also admit that I did have feelings for him at one point. I thought that maybe by liking another person, I would forget about Mike. That obviously wasn't true because I didn't like Andrew all that much and I don't anymore.

Dr.Tail: And that other lie you told? The one about not liking Mike and that you wouldn't go out with him again?

Lauren: I really didn't mean to lie. I was just, embarressed I guess you could say. I was afraid you would think I was pathetic if I told you I still had major feelings for my ex-boyfriend. The fact that you were with Dr.Rudick, your colleague, didn't encourage me much either.

Dr.Tail: Why is that?

Lauren: It doesn't matter.

Dr.Tail: Alright. What about now? How do you feel now that Mike likes you again?

Lauren: I really don't know what to say, do, or think. I'm ecstatic that he does, but I still feel so pathetic for my behaviour about it. Right now I'm more confused than anything. Why all of a sudden does he like me again? You're his psychiatrist too, don't you think you could give me a little clue?

Dr.Tail: I'm afraid I haven't had a chance to ask him such questions and it isn't my place to tell you that. All the things my patients tell me is confidential. Besides that, we happen to be out of time!

Lauren: But I-

Dr.Tail: See you tomorrow!

So there it is, I hope it was an interesting experience for you. By the way, go see Kj or Tara, I did their designs. I'm very proud of both! Tootaloo!

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