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2002-01-12

Chateau Au Ciel

Do you ever question your life. Do you ever wonder why. Do you ever see in your dreams. All the castles in the sky. Oh tell me why, do we build castles in the sky. Please tell me why, all the castles way up high.

See here, I'm getting bored. Bored of my stupid little entries that I've been giving you. They are boring. Boring me and most probably boring you. What in the world happened to me being good? It's January of the year two thousand and two. Lauren needs to shape up!

Basketball is not just a game. It's an attitude. It's a way of life. You can't just play basketball, you've got to be in the game. It's hard to explain. It's not a normal sport either, not like hockey or football. Big burly guys crashing into each other, no. It's not like that. It's strategic and challenging. Wow, this is incredibly hard to explain. Basketball is an attitude, let's just leave it at that.

Have you ever been told that you reminded someone of a person who is afraid to experiment? Someone told me that before I got offline last night and I've been thinking about it ever since. Somehow that line didn't sink in well or it didn't sound like it was probably supposed to. Considering the person who told me that, it was probably meant as a kind of insult, but I didn't take it that way. How can you be afraid to experiment? That seems very unlikely to me. Everything is an experiment one way or another. It has to be. How can you do anything without experimenting first? Life is just one gigantic experiment as well as other things. That comment just doesn't make sense. It just, doesn't compute.

Mother is going to court tomorrow. I want to go. I want to see the action of a real courtroom. I want to see the lawyers at each others' throats. I want to witness what my position might be in a few years, possible. No, she says. No, my mom tell me it's not the place. In a way it's not. It's the court case between my mother's parents and my father, because he is sueing them. In a way though, it is my place. If I'm destined to be in the field of law, then the courtroom is my place to be. It is only right that I should witness an actual courtcase when the opportunity pops up. Of course this particular courtcase is not very appealing, so I think I'll leave it at that.

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